Do you ever feel like your faith life is a roller coaster? It might sound cliche but it is exactly what I am going through right now. If you haven’t noticed, I haven’t posted much recently. During the weeks that have passed since my last post, I have experienced spiritual highs and lows. So what brought me back? Today’s reading.
I had a three week stretch of great spiritual strength. I was firing on all cylinders. Prayer life, strength over sin, I was just on fire. Then I stumbled and fell. It’s been about a week of lackluster prayer life and feelings of being unfulfilled. I’ve sat and prayed for God to deliver me from this aching feeling. To allow me to let go of what is hurting me. As a father, I feel the need to be that strength for my family. To get that back, I need to turn to my heavenly father.
All three readings today are speaking to my heart and brought me out.
Jeremiah 31: “I will make a new covenant…”
I have faced failures over the past week. As a human being this is expected. But what am I going to do about it? The children of Israel broke their covenant with the Lord time and time again. So what did he do? He made a new one with them. I am committing to that today. “I firmly resolve, with the help of His grace, to sin no more and avoid the near occasion of sin.”
Psalm 51: “Create a clean heart in me, O God”
I’ve been struggling to be the man that God created me to be. I need him to cleanse me and take over my heart. By opening my heart to Him, I am allowing His will to fully engulf me. I still struggle with doing this every day as life revolves around me.
Matthew 16: “Who do you say that I am?”
Do I know about Jesus or do I truly know Jesus? I think it changes from day to day and sometimes minute to minute. When I am in a good place spiritually, I know Jesus. When I am struggling, I know about Jesus. Truly knowing Jesus and having that personal relationship with Him is critical to maintain a solid ground. Jesus is going to build His kingdom in each and every one of us. Are you going to let it be built on sand or rock? We must make that decision every single day. In many cases, we have to make that decision several times a day. I’ve been letting it build on sand for the past week. Today, that is over. I am building this kingdom on rock.
If one thing has become abundantly clear to me since I gave me life to Christ, it is that it is not easy. You are going to have great stretches where things are going well and your faith is strong. In an instant, you can be at the opposite end of the spectrum. That roller coaster is inevitable. How you turn it around is where your faith comes into play. Are you going to stay down? Or are you going to get back in the fight? As fathers, we don’t have a choice. The second you concede to darkness, is the second you allow Satan to enter not only your life but that of your family. We can’t afford to stay down.
If you are struggling today, please know that God wants to bring you back. He has the strength, you don’t. Let go. If you aren’t struggling right now, then keep this in the back of your mind and pray for that continued perseverance to remain close to God.
Lord God, please deliver us from all evil that may enter into our lives. Allow us to accept you into our heats and minds and be our strength. Amen